That Inbetween Time

I am in that inbetween time when your big dream starts to manifest but it is not fully formed.   That time when you suddenly feel very uncomfortable to in your old life but you are not ready for the new one.   That place where you are just hanging out and waiting.

This is my least favorite place!

I have a dream.  It is coming but not until September.   But suddenly my Seattle life does not feel comfortable anymore.   I am tired of my job.  I am tired of the traffic.  And I am tired of watching my pretty little city turn into a California sister city.   I know this feeling.  This is the feeling I get when life is about to move me in a very big and different direction.
It's exciting but frustrating that I can't do it now!

This is where I get the whole summer to work on my shadow and faith.   I know the right thing will happen.  I know there is a reason why I am not leaving tomorrow.   I know this move makes me scared in a lot of ways.   I just want to rip the band-aid off instead of feeling these emotions.

And I am sad.   I love my life in Seattle.  I love my friends and my community.  There is an excitment here that I won't get anywhere else.  But this oppurnity is too good for me to pass up.  And it will take my company to the next 3 levels in a skip vs.  staying in Seattle and watching my company grow slowly.   So I am taking that leap of faith and jumping in.

But this in between time is hard!

Playing Big

This whole Playing Big is happening and I am going to need to get used to it.
I am suddenly thrust into success and soon the spotlight.   So much good is happening.   But it's also a huge leap from the shy introvert that I have become over the last few years.  Now I am in the spotlight and I have clients, fans and people that follow me. 

I am staying stable.  I released the ego a while ago and I know this is not about me.  It's about helping people.  It just feels very different in the best way possible. 

And to top it off.  I had a VP of a company I love reach out and say - we want you in whatever position you would like to do.  So what would you like to do?

Because I had been working with magic and my intentions I knew exactly how to answer that.  So it looks like I might be relocating at some point.

I love this life!

If Merlin Lived In Modern Times

I truly believe if Merlin lived in modern times he would work a normal 9 to 5 day job.   He would travel between the two worlds seamlessly.  He might even live in the suburbs.  He would infuse magic in everything he did but he would also realize that in order to live he needs to live with a foot in each world.   He would also do his work quietly.  He would change lives with everything he did but he would not make a show of it because at this point magic has such a odd place in our society.   We need to normalize it.  It isn't about material objects or success.  Magic is about inviting our spirits back into our lives and living in divine harmony.  It's about working with energy to experience what it is to be living at this time. It's about being human and magical all at once.

This is what I have been learning lately.   How to be magical while living a totally normal life.   I don't need to drop out of society.  I don't need to be famous.  What I need to do is to help people return to themselves and integrate magic back into their lives on a daily basis.  To let go of their old stories and to invite their spirit back in because our spirit is what we are all craving and missing.   And our spirit is what connects us to magic.

I am so in love with my spirit.  She has come back fully in the last few months and she is not leaving.  I have been spending my time getting to know her so that she will stay.  She is beautiful and fun and happy.   So happy!

New Moon

Since I started living my life by the moon cycles, magic is everywhere.  This new moon coming up on Sunday is a fertile new moon for growing your intention. It's earthy so I will be burying my intention in the dirt. It's in Taurus so connecting it with materials goods, career and success will give it an extra oomph.  But Taurus energy is also about strong commitment and loyalty so there is a connection to relationships and love. My favorite past partner was a Taurus. They have a sweet spot in my heart.

My intention will be about my company and the big dream that just appeared this week.  I can't talk about it yet until lawyers do their things and papers are signed.  So probably not until September. But I can talk about what I will be doing until then.

I will be setting the intention for what my vision is around this situation and then I will be letting go and trusting the right outcome will happen.
Yep.
 I will not be desperate or freaked out.  My energy will be confident and secure because I know the Universe is loving and magic is happening.   I know that I am doing my soul's work and I am being rewarded for it.  And I know that if it does not work out, I still have my company that I am building on my own. So I really am in the best position.

I am meeting with new clients daily and loving every moment of it. It fuels my heart and fills my soul to be able share with them with I have learned and created.  I get to build a vision for them while contributing to my vision.  I love hearing how their lives progress as they expand and grow into magic.  I love how each person is different and yet we are all human. 

How Good Can I Handle It?

This is what I am asking myself lately.   How good can I handle my life?  What if all my dreams came true?  What if when I did struggle, it was so minor in comparison to the good stuff that it meant I had to write a new story for my entire life as I know it right now?

Because that's exactly what is happening!

My dreams are coming true.  My struggles are so minor in comparison to the rest of my life.  And fear is no longer the main feeling I feel.  It has been replaced with gratitude, faith, excitement, love, compassion and trust.  And JOY!
The best part about all of this is I am practicing what I preach. I do rituals every week if not daily.  I live my life exactly how I am teaching others how to live. I am right there with them learning the shadow lessons and also realizing that there is so much beauty in this world when we create space in our lives for magic.

Don't be scared

Don't be scared.   This is my lesson for today.   I have been presented with a possible giant business offer/partnership that would change my company and my life.
And what do I feel?
Gratitude, excitement and fear.   Yep.  FEAR! 

My shadow is coming out.  Why would I fear this?  
I am so used to things not working out.  I am so used to my magic not working.  I am used to the struggle.

But this story is changing.   I am changing.  My magic has come back more powerful than ever.  I have done the hard work to allow good luck to be the normal thing.  I feel like I past the test of my dark night of the soul!  It was 14 years of darkness.  But I came out into the light.

I have so much writing to do around this today.  I just want to say that the universe is truly magical.  

Pure magic.