That Inbetween Time

I am in that inbetween time when your big dream starts to manifest but it is not fully formed.   That time when you suddenly feel very uncomfortable to in your old life but you are not ready for the new one.   That place where you are just hanging out and waiting.

This is my least favorite place!

I have a dream.  It is coming but not until September.   But suddenly my Seattle life does not feel comfortable anymore.   I am tired of my job.  I am tired of the traffic.  And I am tired of watching my pretty little city turn into a California sister city.   I know this feeling.  This is the feeling I get when life is about to move me in a very big and different direction.
It's exciting but frustrating that I can't do it now!

This is where I get the whole summer to work on my shadow and faith.   I know the right thing will happen.  I know there is a reason why I am not leaving tomorrow.   I know this move makes me scared in a lot of ways.   I just want to rip the band-aid off instead of feeling these emotions.

And I am sad.   I love my life in Seattle.  I love my friends and my community.  There is an excitment here that I won't get anywhere else.  But this oppurnity is too good for me to pass up.  And it will take my company to the next 3 levels in a skip vs.  staying in Seattle and watching my company grow slowly.   So I am taking that leap of faith and jumping in.

But this in between time is hard!