Trying To Put It Into Words

I am trying to put what this weekend has meant to me into words and frankly..... There are none.

I am bone tired.  I am broken open.  I am at peace. I am trusting the Universe.  I am secure.

These are just a few of the things that I am feeling at this moment.   There are so many layers to what I just experienced.

I took a chance and went to Hannah Marcotti's Laughing Loon retreat in Maine.   It was something that half of me kept saying No too.  But my Spirit kept saying yes.

I am so glad I went.

Right as I was leaving town I found out my current job is pretty much over.   I kept thinking.  I should not go to the retreat.  But then my spirit would pop up and say, if you miss it, you will regret it for the rest of your life.

And she was so right!

I arrived on Thursday just exhausted.   I was mentally, emotionally and spiritually drained.   I knew some of the ladies so I had people to hold me.  But I was also very out of my element.

By Thursday night I was in bed early and slept all night long.  No waking up.  No noise could have woken me.    And I was Freezing!  I had not put enough blankets or warm clothing on Thursday night.  I was shaking from the cold. 

Friday morning out of the blue I received an email with the start of salary discussions about my dream job.  Yep. From no job Wednesday night as I head to the airport to let's get this other job moving.  It was a huge turn of events.  And one I needed.

It turns out I was staying in a cabin with three incredibly talented and successful women.   And they were able to hold me as I cried, I laughed and I finally started to realize my self worth.   This is not something that comes easy to me.  I work very hard but often never feel successful.   These women flipped that thought in my head so hard.    It was life changing!

I got it.  I got this.   

My life is forever changed thanks to this weekend.    After my hot seat chair I socialized a bit more and then went to bed.   The next morning I was exhausted.  I didn't want to leave my bed or my warm cabin.   I had dreams of writing my book in a cabin in the woods.  I nestled in for a couple of hours of alone time.  Then when the sun came out I spent an hour in the lake.    I needed to cleanse.  I needed water.  I need quiet time. 

I needed to celebrate me!

It's so hard for me to celebrate me.  It feels like trying to move a mountain.   But it's long over due.

Saturday night was our last night there.  And then I had to pack and return home last night.    I am still working to process the whole experience.   I am still in shock and awe that I will be moving soon.  That I got my dream job and that I get to grow my company.   

I am so blessed, grateful and grounded in these next steps in life.   

When The Magic Comes Back

August was interesting.

And somewhat exhausting.  I had so many lessons coming down from the Universe that it felt like the month would never end.   So many endings.  So many deep lessons from within.

But this weekend it all changed.

I woke up Saturday morning early.  It finally cooled down here in Seattle and was raining. I decided to take myself out for coffee in the early morning to write.  I needed to balance myself out and the only thing I know that truly allows me to feel balanced is writing.  As I was enjoying my Italian coffee and sparkling water, I realized what I wanted to do the most on Saturday was spend the day in silence working on my vision board.   This is a cork board I had bought myself in March but had yet to do anything with.
Saturday I was moved to finish it.  I wanted my vision of my future to finally be put down in images.
I went to the store and bought some magazines and went home to work on my project.  Chai Tea, my porch door open while the rain came down and silence.  It was perfect.  I felt so inspired by the images I was cutting out.  They feel so real.
I completed the board and hung it up on my wall.  It's so different than if I had completed it in March.  It's so much more authentic and on point.  I have shed so much since March and have gotten very clear on what I want my future to look like.

Right after I finished the board and lit my magic dream candle next to it, I saw a text from my favorite astrologer.   It said something like - the story from March is done.  You are now ready for the future.

Whoa!

I looked up the date from March in my journal and saw that this was the exact weekend I bought my vision board cork board.  And yet, it took me until this weekend to complete it.   I had so many lessons to learn. And I needed to get clear on what my vision for my future looks like beyond just "success".

I spent the rest of the day in a magical space as I realized when I just allow myself to be guided by magical timing.  That everything ends up making sense and there is a reason for it.
I could not finish the vision board until this weekend because it would not have been authentic. I would have questioned what I put on it.
But now, if I even attempt to question my vision board, it does not feel right.  My vision board feels like my truth.  Not my critical ego mind.
But it took me until now to live this truth.

I am so happy the magic has come back in a big way.  I am ready for my transformation and to help more people.

Check out my client stories if you are interested in the kind of work I do with people.  It's the same work I am doing with myself.   We are all magical beings in this life together.

http://www.emilyamitchell.com/client-stories/

Ritual For This Creative Season

This last week has been roller coaster energy.  There have been so many lessons coming from the Universe.   Most of them have been good but some have been hard as well.   It has been a good but exhausting week.  A week where I was truly grateful it ended on Friday.

But then something beautiful happened.  I woke up Saturday morning in a delicious creative space.  I suddenly wanted to dream again.  I wanted to take my time this weekend reworking on my big vision in life.  I wanted to create new vision maps.  I wanted to write in a new journal.  I wanted to sit in silence.

What I realized in doing all of the above was thanks to all the work I have been doing this year on working on my vision of what I want to create in life, is that my vision is bigger and more beautiful than before.   I am expanding on all levels.  My world is becoming bigger and my dreams are closer than ever.

What a great dive into creative energy this weekend has been.  Now as we roll into the energy of the super moon, I can feel where Jupiter is ready for me to expand my life.  My creative juices are on fire. The veil between my dream world and my everyday world is thin and expanding all at once.

I am encouraging all my clients right now to dive back into your dream in a creative way.  Because your dream may not be big enough yet and right now the Universe really wants us to dream big!

Ritual for the Full Moon

Take the time in the next week to create a new vision board or dream journal.   Start with the old dream and add more to it.  More feelings, more details, more color!  How good could you stand this dream?  Then add more to it.  
Sit down with a special candle that you will burn from today to the night of August 29th.  Create this vision board with it.   Light it everyday and spend a few minutes each day thinking about your dream. Then start looking for clues that the universe is listening.  Because I promise the Universe is listening.  These signs could show up as feathers, grasshoppers, butterfly's, your favorite song, old friends coming back into your life, new friends, a delicious book that is just what you needed to hear. There are so many signs the universe likes to place in our path.  If we are listening, watching and expecting these  signs, we will see them.

So go out and get creative!