Taking to rituals

This last week has been creative.  I have been digging into my soul like soil.  Working through the changes and creating rituals every step of the way. 

I am changed.  

And yet, I am still the same.  My life is exactly the same.  Farmers market Sunday's, Friday night cocktail night with the gang, parties on Saturday night.  I still talk to the same people.  See the same faces at my grocery store. 

But my soul is different.   My spirit is different.   The artist is back. She is magical and in creative mode.  She is ready to prepare for the next phase.   To build up this energy and call in the right next steps. 

Let's see where she takes me!

Big Changes - Beautiful Changes

I am on the verge of some big changes.  I can feel it.  
I have never felt more relaxed and sure of myself.

Two very interesting sentences together.   Normally changes cause fear, panic and unhappiness. But these changes I have been working with since last November.  These changes have been the basis of my rituals every few weeks for almost a year.  These changes feel like coming home.   Everything I have been doing and thinking has brought about these exciting changes.  Actually, my whole life has brought me to this point.  Because these changes are rooted in who I have been since I was kid.  
It's just that I finally let my authentic self come forward and the Universe is meeting me half way.

I am also learning the fine art of letting go the need to control, be right or live in ego.   I have been working with this lesson since my spine injury and I find that my life has gotten easier with every opportunity to practice this lesson.   Now I am being presented with people that want to live that way in my life and I am not having it.  I don't want to be controlled, have someone force what they think is right on me or allow their ego to rule our relationship.   It simply won't work anymore for me.

So I am letting go and just keeping my side of the street clean.   I know the kind of people I need and want in my life.   And they are showing up like never before.   My heart is so full!  

New Moon Ritual For September - It's all about facing your fears!

New Moon Ritual for September

All about facing your fears to bring in the new

This new moon is different. I can feel it.  It’s not about calling in the new in a traditional sense.  No, that would not be practical enough for dear Virgo.  This new moon is all about facing your fears so that you can release them to call in the new.   Sounds fun right!

Or not.

But that’s the theme this week.  Facing your fears, facing your shadow.  Being tested by taking you right to the edge of your dreams and then stopping.  Placing you right on the  verge of your dreams and then making you sit in the uncomfortable moment right before you jump.  And holding you there so that you really understand that manifesting is not just a grocery list of items you want in life.  Walking this life is all about trusting yourself and the Universe enough to take that leap of faith knowing you will be supported the whole way.

And guess what?

That moment is scary!   There is no net that you can see,  there is no turning back and the other side suddenly looks very far away.  But if you can heal that fear, if you trust that you will make it safely to the other side then you will feel joy and excitement on a level you never knew possible.  

You just have to heal those fears and that shadow side.  You need to turn to faith and divine timing.  You need to uncover what is causing this fear and release it so that the new life can come in.

So for September let’s write down our desires on one side of the paper and our fears on the other side.  Let’s compare these two statements.   Then let’s write down our desires with a statement that calms the fear and flips it.     Let’s soothe these fears.   Burn the desire list that is full of your fears!  Release it.  Then save your desire list that has the new loving statements alongside the desires.  This is going to be your guiding light for the next month.  

I would also buy or make a special candle to have for this month.  Everyday light the candle for a few minutes a day and read the new list.  It will help you let go of the fear.  

New Start

This morning was perfect.

I woke up an hour early refreshed and it was quiet.   After two weeks of extreme heat for the Northwest, the cloud cover is a welcome change.  I was happy to be up before the construction guys started.  I didn't feel groggy or sleepy.  I finally felt peaceful enough to get out of bed and to sit in my cozy green chair to write my morning pages.

Boy did I have a lot to write about.   I had some pretty intense dreams last night.  They were good.  Lot's of mental sorting and lessons.  Ex's came into my dreams that normally would have made me sad.  Not last night.  There was nothing but the feelings I had when we were together.  With one person it was the feeling of constantly having my boundaries crossed and ignored.   I don't want this person back in my life.  I never liked how much they took over in my world and just walked all over me.  I am sure they never meant too but they did.  It was like a bulldozer.  A selfish narcissistic bulldozer.   The other person was only in my dreams for a moment and it revolved around me putting my life on hold for them.  Our biggest issues was me fighting to keep my dreams moving forward while we were together.  I was determined not to disappear like my previous relationship but this caused issues because they wanted me not to work so hard, not to focus so much on school, not to network as much.

But then I woke up and thought.  That isn't me anymore.  I don't have any connection to these people anymore. I can dream about the past and it no longer hurts me.   I am free of both of these people.

Progress!

I also sat with the realization that I will soon be waking up without an alarm clock when I am coaching full time.  I will be able to spend my first hour of the morning writing, having a cup of tea and embracing the sunrise.   I will be relaxed all day because I have faith that the universe is providing me with exactly what I need.  The best part, this new chapter is not very far away.   I can see it becoming reality everyday.  I can feel it every morning I wake up and feel so much gratitude and love.

Today feels like a fresh start and I hope everyone has similar feelings because we all deserve to wake up this peaceful and happy.  It is such a great way to wake up!

Venus Has Been Whispering To You. Have You Been Listening?

Venus has been coming to me the last two weeks and whispering lessons into my ear.  These have been uncomfortable and life changing.  Nothing dramatic or scary.  But they are big changes.   Venus has been gentle is showing me where I need to change.  Where my heart wants to grow and where I need to let go of my old story.  I love her for this.

On the eve of the new moon I slept for two hours.  But instead of being mad or grumpy at the lack of sleep, I am grateful.   Grateful for my peaceful home where I can listen to trains at night.   Grateful to feel the breeze coming up from the waterway between the lake and the sound.  Grateful for a large deck with a new canopy that allows me to be outside in a cozy space that I am building.  Grateful for a cold bath at 4 am with magical oils to soothe me.

This is where I honor Venus for whispering these lessons to me.  She has shown me lovingly where I can and need to change and that it is safe to make these changes.  It is safe to let go of the old and take that leap of faith.  I am so grateful that I can finally hear these messages and am ready to be guided by them.

I am also in full swing of meeting with my clients again.  It feels so good to be out of vacation mode and up and running in coaching mode.  I love all the changes my clients are working on.  I love the stories and images they send me.  And I love the fact we are not just connecting as people but we are connecting on a soul and energetic level. It makes my heart so very happy. I am learning as much from them as they are learning from me.

 

Playing Big

This whole Playing Big is happening and I am going to need to get used to it.
I am suddenly thrust into success and soon the spotlight.   So much good is happening.   But it's also a huge leap from the shy introvert that I have become over the last few years.  Now I am in the spotlight and I have clients, fans and people that follow me. 

I am staying stable.  I released the ego a while ago and I know this is not about me.  It's about helping people.  It just feels very different in the best way possible. 

And to top it off.  I had a VP of a company I love reach out and say - we want you in whatever position you would like to do.  So what would you like to do?

Because I had been working with magic and my intentions I knew exactly how to answer that.  So it looks like I might be relocating at some point.

I love this life!